star child

I'm not supposed to decompose where everybody else has grown

“I lit a match just to see it burning
Give me gasoline or give me anything
I want it all, I want nothing, I want space,
I fell apart, I collapsed, I crumbled, I take back
everything and now I’m reveling
I’m unfamiliar with myself, though I’m the same”

*** lyrics from House & Home ***

hello operator:

Somewhere between North Jersey and Philadelphia. 

You told me that lately all
these days and nights have been so beautiful,
but you feel like you're a mental breakdown that's long overdue.
So, you're out here  spending late nights chasing the lights,
trying to outrun the things in your head.

It made me think of all the things that I've been chasing and wondering the worth of it and how I always feel the same way, because when everything feels too good - there's always another punch to take and I guess we just get use to all of the waiting.

While we're in the moment, we'll keep chasing and chasing as we keep hoping the night doesn't catch back up to us. And, I guess we'll be okay if we don't keep waiting around.