“I lit a match just to see it burning
Give me gasoline or give me anything
I want it all, I want nothing, I want space,
I fell apart, I collapsed, I crumbled, I take back
everything and now I’m reveling
I’m unfamiliar with myself, though I’m the same”
*** lyrics from House & Home ***
but, maybe he doesn’t exist anymore.
Maybe, I was never who I thought.
Just a ghost, a shadow, a thought….
Ft. // Self
“ I can see it again…….
Every other page there's something gone.
I need another reason to live, yeah.
I don’t even know how I lost it and now I'm sleeping with these dreams —
I can't stop playing in my head;
There's one in which I’m drowning and then
One where I'm beginning to start over new. “
—— The Dangerous Summer
featuring Greg aka the color 42
“ These are the seasons of emotion,
and like the winds, they rise and fall. ”
― Led Zeppelin
Notes:
I shot these photos loosely based on the moods and feelings inspired from the photography of Bob Sala.
+ the book, “Life After God” by Douglas Coupland has been a favorite read of mine for too many years and is always a favorite to quote.
+ the paintings, photos and several other things you can see throughout this set are all other artworks that I’ve made.
+ the quotes and scribbles written all over the note papers are parts of lyrics from songs written by the featured model.
+ a lot of the objects and decorations were actually made to help along with the story line of these photos.
+ At some point in the middle of shooting, Greg turned to me and said, “dude, I feel like you’re literally just photographing my depression.” It’s random but one of the coolest things that I’ve personally heard. Maybe, it was all just a part of the moment.
Model: Adena
Somewhere in NJ
Lyrics from “What it is to burn” by FINCH
I feel diseased, is there no sympathy from the sun?
The sky's still fire…..
But, I am safe in here from the world outside.
So tell me…..
What's the price to pay for glory?
Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her…..
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn.
Model: Melissa
Somewhere in NJ
Title / Words: “Just enough to love you…”
by Bayside
“The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most.
So, I'll bite my tongue till it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know.
The easiest things to fake are feelings to fool someone else.
And I've been tricked for so long by you that I spent these last few months in my own hell.”
