i have no love

Somewhere lost in Philadelphia
Between the times of 12am - 4am

To the times where I feel like nothing that I do really means anything
or that none of it will ever really matter
and I need to just disappear - I feel at home alone and lost in cities with nowhere to go,
nowhere to be, no one to be. It’s some time after 2 in the morning and everything feels okay
where I’m just a ghost among a bunch of strangers just going about their lives.

Sometimes, it makes me see things clearly and other times — it just helps make those thoughts feel not so heavy — it’s okay to be lost.

And maybe, this does matter — Maybe, I just don’t know it. Maybe, I just can’t see it.

you were the perfect storm

featuring Greg aka the color 42

“ These are the seasons of emotion,
and like the winds, they rise and fall. ” 
― Led Zeppelin

Notes:

  • I shot these photos loosely based on the moods and feelings inspired from the photography of Bob Sala.
    + the book, “Life After God” by Douglas Coupland has been a favorite read of mine for too many years and is always a favorite to quote.
    + the paintings, photos and several other things you can see throughout this set are all other artworks that I’ve made.
    + the quotes and scribbles written all over the note papers are parts of lyrics from songs written by the featured model.
    + a lot of the objects and decorations were actually made to help along with the story line of these photos.
    + At some point in the middle of shooting, Greg turned to me and said, “dude, I feel like you’re literally just photographing my depression.” It’s random but one of the coolest things that I’ve personally heard. Maybe, it was all just a part of the moment.

desert dreams

Chester, NJ

"The desert and the ocean are realms of desolation on the surface.

The desert is a place of bones, where the innards are turned out, to desiccate into dust.

The ocean is a place of skin, rich outer membranes hiding thick juicy insides, laden with the soup of being.

Inside out and outside in. These are worlds of things that implode or explode, and the only catalyst that determines the direction of eco-movement is the balance of water.

Both worlds are deceptive, dangerous. Both, seething with hidden life.

The only veil that stands between perception of what is underneath the desolate surface is your courage.

Dare to breach the surface and sink."
-Vera Nazarian

I've always had this want to explore into the desert. I guess for now, I can find places that will keep me captivated with plant life as in these photos.

"God takes everyone he loves through a desert. It is his cure for our wandering hearts, restlessly searching for a new Eden... 
The best gift of the desert is God's presence... The protective love of the Shepherd gives me courage to face the interior journey."
Paul E. Miller