" This is your life and its ending one moment at a time. "

A Caged Bird // Free the mind, the soul
A small self-portrait series
All quotes from Fight Club

Warning: If you are reading this then this warning is for you. Every word you read of this useless fine print is another second off your life. Don't you have other things to do? Is your life so empty that you honestly can't think of a better way to spend these moments? Or, are you so impressed with authority that you give respect and credence to all that claim it? Do you read everything you're supposed to read? Do you think every thing you're supposed to think? Buy what you're told to want? Get out of your apartment. Meet a member of the opposite sex. Stop the excessive shopping and masturbation. Quit your job. Start a fight. Prove you're alive. If you don't claim your humanity you will become a statistic. You have been warned.”

“At the time, my life just seemed too complete, and maybe we have to break everything to make something better out of ourselves.
Only after disaster can we be resurrected. It's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything. Nothing is static, everything is evolving, everything is falling apart.
We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won't. And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off.”

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Model: Caitlin
Somewhere in NJ


we fall asleep with the color of the sunrise
we count the years on circles under our eyes
we dream in shades of blue and grey…
we speak in tongues of metaphors and stories
we bleed the ink of subtle allegory
we are the needles in the hay…

so many faces, so many voices
so many reasons to give this up.
this goes on and on.”

——— Tim McIlrath

I've been trying to remember who i am

but, maybe he doesn’t exist anymore.
Maybe, I was never who I thought.
Just a ghost, a shadow, a thought….

Ft. // Self

I can see it again…….
Every other page there's something gone.
I need another reason to live, yeah.
I don’t even know how I lost it and now I'm sleeping with these dreams —
I can't stop playing in my head;
There's one in which I’m drowning and then
One where I'm beginning to start over new. “

—— The Dangerous Summer

you were the perfect storm

featuring Greg aka the color 42

“ These are the seasons of emotion,
and like the winds, they rise and fall. ” 
― Led Zeppelin

Notes:

  • I shot these photos loosely based on the moods and feelings inspired from the photography of Bob Sala.
    + the book, “Life After God” by Douglas Coupland has been a favorite read of mine for too many years and is always a favorite to quote.
    + the paintings, photos and several other things you can see throughout this set are all other artworks that I’ve made.
    + the quotes and scribbles written all over the note papers are parts of lyrics from songs written by the featured model.
    + a lot of the objects and decorations were actually made to help along with the story line of these photos.
    + At some point in the middle of shooting, Greg turned to me and said, “dude, I feel like you’re literally just photographing my depression.” It’s random but one of the coolest things that I’ve personally heard. Maybe, it was all just a part of the moment.

like a bad star

Model: Adena
Somewhere in NJ
Lyrics from “What it is to burn” by FINCH

I feel diseased, is there no sympathy from the sun?
The sky's still fire…..
But, I am safe in here from the world outside.

So tell me…..
What's the price to pay for glory?

Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her…..
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn.