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nos·tal·gic

adjective

  1. 1.

    characterized by or exhibiting feelings of nostalgia.

    synonyms: wistful, evocative, longing/yearning/pining for the past, romantic, sentimental, emotional about the past, regretful, dewy-eyed, maudlin, homesick

It's funny how nothing changes but everything has.
Familiar faces become not so familiar.
Some songs will take on new meanings; while others will bring you right back into exact moments of forgotten memories.
Photos will always take you back and remind of the better things that you didn’t know you were missing.
Home begins to feel less and less like home but, you go visit old hometowns and places you spent endless days and nights in - just to have a different feeling loom over you as you wander around realizing how different everything is.
And, when the smiles begin to fade from the reminders — I wonder if I’ll ever feel those feelings again — if they’ll ever feel that impactful as they once did. I wonder if I’ll ever have friends like that again and if things will ever feel new again.

I've been trying to remember who i am

but, maybe he doesn’t exist anymore.
Maybe, I was never who I thought.
Just a ghost, a shadow, a thought….

Ft. // Self

I can see it again…….
Every other page there's something gone.
I need another reason to live, yeah.
I don’t even know how I lost it and now I'm sleeping with these dreams —
I can't stop playing in my head;
There's one in which I’m drowning and then
One where I'm beginning to start over new. “

—— The Dangerous Summer