I've been trying to remember who i am

but, maybe he doesn’t exist anymore.
Maybe, I was never who I thought.
Just a ghost, a shadow, a thought….

Ft. // Self

“ I can see it again…….
Every other page there's something gone.
I need another reason to live, yeah.
I don’t even know how I lost it and now I'm sleeping with these dreams —
I can't stop playing in my head;
There's one in which I’m drowning and then
One where I'm beginning to start over new. “

—— The Dangerous Summer

she's dancing away into the night

Model: Brielle
Morristown, NJ
Words by Me

Oh, but this life, it's always fun in the minute. It's always fun when you're in a blur. You feel so alive, dancing in the night air. Waiting for the train to - anywhere but here.

But, this feeling... It won't last forever. And, you'll wake up feeling like death trying to piece all back together.

You'll remember small moments of freedom where you didn't feel so much like yourself, you'll remember the smiles from the night before as you try to put yourself back together.

And again, tonight, there you'll be under the platform lights - dancing into the night waiting for the next train, the next destination, the next....

And, doesn't she look so free dancing underneath those lights?

you were the perfect storm

featuring Greg aka the color 42

“ These are the seasons of emotion,
and like the winds, they rise and fall. ” 
― Led Zeppelin

Notes:

  • I shot these photos loosely based on the moods and feelings inspired from the photography of Bob Sala.
    + the book, “Life After God” by Douglas Coupland has been a favorite read of mine for too many years and is always a favorite to quote.
    + the paintings, photos and several other things you can see throughout this set are all other artworks that I’ve made.
    + the quotes and scribbles written all over the note papers are parts of lyrics from songs written by the featured model.
    + a lot of the objects and decorations were actually made to help along with the story line of these photos.
    + At some point in the middle of shooting, Greg turned to me and said, “dude, I feel like you’re literally just photographing my depression.” It’s random but one of the coolest things that I’ve personally heard. Maybe, it was all just a part of the moment.

like a bad star

Model: Adena
Somewhere in NJ
Lyrics from “What it is to burn” by FINCH

I feel diseased, is there no sympathy from the sun?
The sky's still fire…..
But, I am safe in here from the world outside.

So tell me…..
What's the price to pay for glory?

Like a bad star, I'm falling faster down to her…..
She's the only one who knows, what it is to burn.