hello operator:

Somewhere between North Jersey and Philadelphia. 

You told me that lately all
these days and nights have been so beautiful,
but you feel like you're a mental breakdown that's long overdue.
So, you're out here  spending late nights chasing the lights,
trying to outrun the things in your head.

It made me think of all the things that I've been chasing and wondering the worth of it and how I always feel the same way, because when everything feels too good - there's always another punch to take and I guess we just get use to all of the waiting.

While we're in the moment, we'll keep chasing and chasing as we keep hoping the night doesn't catch back up to us. And, I guess we'll be okay if we don't keep waiting around.

train station thoughts

Somewhere in New Jersey.

I miss the smell of the city,
like I miss the sound of your voice,
like I miss those long cold nights in,
like I miss the warm days of summer,
like I miss sunsets on the roof,
like how much you can miss something, but begin to feel okay again.

The sky broke out into a million different colors and I saw everything so clearly.
It was in everything.
It was you, it was me.
Clarity came in a moment without thought.

I haven't felt so connected as I have in a long time; I won't give it a name, but I'm seeing so much more while I've been looking a whole lot less.

desert dreams

Chester, NJ

"The desert and the ocean are realms of desolation on the surface.

The desert is a place of bones, where the innards are turned out, to desiccate into dust.

The ocean is a place of skin, rich outer membranes hiding thick juicy insides, laden with the soup of being.

Inside out and outside in. These are worlds of things that implode or explode, and the only catalyst that determines the direction of eco-movement is the balance of water.

Both worlds are deceptive, dangerous. Both, seething with hidden life.

The only veil that stands between perception of what is underneath the desolate surface is your courage.

Dare to breach the surface and sink."
-Vera Nazarian

I've always had this want to explore into the desert. I guess for now, I can find places that will keep me captivated with plant life as in these photos.

"God takes everyone he loves through a desert. It is his cure for our wandering hearts, restlessly searching for a new Eden... 
The best gift of the desert is God's presence... The protective love of the Shepherd gives me courage to face the interior journey."
Paul E. Miller